Its cold, I've been working all night, I've driven home, I have to drive back, I feel ok srangely enough.
Maybe its because the end is in sight. A couple more runs of crappy shifts and then I have a week and a half off.
Saturday, 30 January 2010
Thursday, 28 January 2010
I can't get into this week's shift of nights...
Got very little sleep yesterday (hence no whining post about it) and really, really struggled with the work in the night. My legs actually gave way at about 4am. I walked down some stairs and found that my legs had gone to sleep as I got to the bottom - and I just about avoided sitting down heavily. Hope it wasn't on the CCTV!!
Again I haven't had much sleep, but I feel OK on it today. Yesterday it was a struggle from the moment I opened my eyes. Today feels better so far.
2 more nights, I can tough it out, and I have my favourite radio show to keep me company on Saturday morning... Could be worse. I suppose.
Got very little sleep yesterday (hence no whining post about it) and really, really struggled with the work in the night. My legs actually gave way at about 4am. I walked down some stairs and found that my legs had gone to sleep as I got to the bottom - and I just about avoided sitting down heavily. Hope it wasn't on the CCTV!!
Again I haven't had much sleep, but I feel OK on it today. Yesterday it was a struggle from the moment I opened my eyes. Today feels better so far.
2 more nights, I can tough it out, and I have my favourite radio show to keep me company on Saturday morning... Could be worse. I suppose.
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Back to a run of nights. A tearful day so far, though I hid it well by not actually allowing a single tear to express itself.
Have driven up and arrived with the intention of shopping, sleeping and cleaning myself up before work. I might, just be able to sleep if I'm lucky...
The others will have to go by the wayside - but just arriving and closing the door of the digs behind me has calmed me. Long may it last.
Have driven up and arrived with the intention of shopping, sleeping and cleaning myself up before work. I might, just be able to sleep if I'm lucky...
The others will have to go by the wayside - but just arriving and closing the door of the digs behind me has calmed me. Long may it last.
Monday, 25 January 2010
Woke up in a panic again today.
Wifey had been rehearsing for an interview today, and had managed to stress me out completely by 9pm last night. I woke up convinced that the neurologist had told us that she was dying.
I was planning how to deal with it all when I realised there is a week or so until the first appointment. Not a great start to the day.
I took the son to school. She went to the interview.
She came back quite upset, saying it had gone badly. Sure enough, several hours later she got a call confirming that she didn't get the job.
All very black and sour here all afternoon.
Yeah - I'm worried about the doctors, too. She seems to be losing her hair. She says its breaking, but it doesn't seem to be growing back, and its getting worse. The headache that prompted the visit to the GP is now about 3months old, and she has constant stomach problems.
I know they don't seem connected, but it all looks like it started at the same time.
Wifey had been rehearsing for an interview today, and had managed to stress me out completely by 9pm last night. I woke up convinced that the neurologist had told us that she was dying.
I was planning how to deal with it all when I realised there is a week or so until the first appointment. Not a great start to the day.
I took the son to school. She went to the interview.
She came back quite upset, saying it had gone badly. Sure enough, several hours later she got a call confirming that she didn't get the job.
All very black and sour here all afternoon.
Yeah - I'm worried about the doctors, too. She seems to be losing her hair. She says its breaking, but it doesn't seem to be growing back, and its getting worse. The headache that prompted the visit to the GP is now about 3months old, and she has constant stomach problems.
I know they don't seem connected, but it all looks like it started at the same time.
Sunday, 24 January 2010
Saturday, 23 January 2010
A few days off work and at home mean several things - Online games, bad food, but most of all, and best of all - Falling asleep in the middle of the day because I can.
Sport is the best accompanyment for this activity, or lack of activity. A gentle sport like bowls, dart or snooker is best, but football or rugby will do just as well. Can't wait to miss the result of Chelsea/Preston, and the start of the Leeds/Spurs game tomorrow.
Sport is the best accompanyment for this activity, or lack of activity. A gentle sport like bowls, dart or snooker is best, but football or rugby will do just as well. Can't wait to miss the result of Chelsea/Preston, and the start of the Leeds/Spurs game tomorrow.
Thursday, 21 January 2010
Sleep - a distant memory.
It's 4:30, and I've been awake since 3:15. This is the 5th consecutive night, or is it morning, that this has happened.
I have tried all the relaxation techniques I know, and they all work really well, until the point where I am about to fall asleep, when my brain suddenly goes "Oh, work is going to be crap today... and you need to sort that debt out, and what about your relationship with your wife, and son, and parents..."
And then it wont shut up.
What a bastard!
I have tried all the relaxation techniques I know, and they all work really well, until the point where I am about to fall asleep, when my brain suddenly goes "Oh, work is going to be crap today... and you need to sort that debt out, and what about your relationship with your wife, and son, and parents..."
And then it wont shut up.
What a bastard!
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